Angina – Chest pain that occurs secondary to the inadequate delivery of oxygen to the heart muscle. Often described as a heavy or squeesing pain in the midsternal area of the chest.
I woke up early again today. My heart is literally painful. Once I open my eyes, I can never get back to sleep again.
How terribly I miss her. How terribly I long for her. How awfully I want to say that to her, but it’s hard.
It’s been three days since she last told me she can’t be with me anymore. But we still talk. I’m so happy we’re still able to talk. And I still want to fight for us.
I hope this blog will be a sort of therapy for me, to help me cope with this difficult time in our lives. It’s so hard, what’s happening to us. For the first two days since that day I really wasn’t able to sleep. The moment I closed my eyes, I’m haunted with thoughts about what happened to us, about her, and random moments we shared together. (Damn. I’m talking as if it’s really the end. But I’m not giving up hope.)
You’re my first and my last, I told her once. I can’t believe this is really happening. We’ve been together for three years and seven months. What a long period of time. We shared so many precious moments together. The happiest days of my life I shared with her…
I’ll stop here for now.
